All that i am or hope to be is because of my angel mother

This email was written by osama after Honey' s mom's death...
and this is so true...so beautiful...

"sad fails to capture the emotion, shocking loses its meaning ...un believable becomes an under statement ! i cant gather enough courage to say to myself, my best friends mother is no more...but still, it was him...who called me minutes after her death to break the news to me... cant believe how someone so young can come off age so quickly...how can out of all people, HANNAN behave so maturely...how come hes the one who has sufered the greatest loss and yet, invairably, hes the one consoling everybody ! why...why is he the one to wipe tears off everyone's faces ! why did the most gentle of all men i know had to suffer this loss.. how...how come he has this composure...this will to be strong..this urge from within to hide his tears and put a brave face ! no one seems to believe the news at first...and when they do, no one can stop crying...such is the way they feel for him...such is the way they care for him... but why do i feel that tears have lost their worth...words have become meaningless...an embrace or a hug means nothing... why do i feel that despite of the days i have spent with him,i have done nothing for him...i have not said anything to make him feel better...i have not made him feel how special he is fo



despair that i feel so.

for you i will hold on,
but i know its not for long.

i promise i will try,
but if i fail you'll know why.

yet things i've done,
can never be undone.

my apologies for all,
and to all.

i'm sorry.