Sar Kiye Yeh Pahaar, StringsSar Kiye Yeh Pahaar Daryaon Ke Gehrayion Mein Tujhe Dhoonda HaiAa Bhi Jaa EkbaarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraarSar Kiye Yeh Pahaar Daryaon Ke Gehrayion Mein Tujhe Dhoonda HaiAa Bhi Jaa EkbaarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraaaaaarHo Gaya Hai Tum Se PyarHo Gaya Hai Tum Se PyarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarJidhar Bhi Dekhoon Tu Hii Nazar Aatii HaiAankhen Bandh Karloon ToTu Aur Kareeb Aati HaiJidhar Bhi Dekhoon Tu Hii Nazar Aatii HaiAankhen Bandh Karloon ToTu Aur Kareeb Aati HaiiiiiiiiMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraarKhushbu Teri Mujhe Jo Chchu Jaati HaiMere Mann Mein Kaisey Yeh Deep Jala Jaati HaiiiiiKhushbu Teri Mujhe Jo Chchu Jaati HaiMere Mann Mein Kaisey Yeh Deep Jala Jaati HaiiiiiMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere......Tujhe Dhoonda Haiii (Some disturbance caused)Aa Bhi Jaa EkbaarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraaaaaarSar Kiye Yeh Pahaar Daryaon Ke Gehrayion Mein Tujhe Dhoonda HaiAa Bhi Jaa EkbaarMere Yaar Se Na Looto Mere Mann Ka KaraaaaaaaaaarSar Kiye Yeh Pahaar Daryaon Ke Gehrayion Mein Tujhe Dhoonda HaiiiLa la la la la la ...

16th oct 2005

Falling for mere objects…things that r lifeless..its soo easy

U know wat…felt like seeig Ron again…was so easy…I just used to look at him…blush..smile to myself..listen to that deep,husky voice..used to observe his activities all day long…used to go home and write abt it..finsih…no one hurt..no wriies…JUST a crush

I loved Romney penhallow…who is he?...infact wat is he?just a mere character out of a twenty page short story…sunno wat made me adore him…but I did...my hero!

I even fell for Blue…sweet valley ka hero bhi…n a junior in my school…hehehe…was really nice…puppy love…cute,tall,nice,smiling,and then the crush ends…any problem?..nope!

A weird..balkay MAHA weird person like me has even fallen for Severus Snape who is hated by 90% of harry potter fans I think…still the spice of his character..the mystery..the nastiness…mayb even da coldness…fantastic…still had no problem…

The list goes on from Arjun Ramplall to Al pacino,,,,Johny Depp..hehe…aur pata nahin kon kon…
Bt now…there is a problem…I fell for a human being,,,who had feelings…who could love me back..who could actually feel pain…who could get aattatched…who cloould miss me…who could take care of me..who could dream…who could hope..who could pray…found Bond…aaaah..whther it’s the best thing that happened to me…I don’t know yet…the time will tell me…I wish..i just wished that i want as attached as well… I wish it did not hurt anyone….i wish it was sthing ryte in the eyes of everyone..including myself…I wish I hadn’t loosened up…I wish I had remained that brat I used to be..i wish I did not even have a choice…I wish I did not have tears in my eyes now...yet WHY…why o why do I wish for it to happen…wish for the dreams to come true…the prayers to b fulfilled…wish that everything should turn out to b well…the way we have imagined…

CONCLUSION: I m a mess!!!! And that I am responsible for someone as well…for turning all those desires into hopes…I am responsible for it all…I am a mess..
Aaaah..but still there are hopes..there are dreamz…there are prayers…Allah jee…please guide me…please male this all right for me…best for me…You can do anything….ANYTHING…please God…help me….

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the driving force 2

i was talking abt my driving force once in the blog..ik dam khyaal aya....its aslo appreciation that drives me...drives me to work hard...and also drives me insane..i wonder y....

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