16th oct 2005
Falling for mere objects…things that r lifeless..its soo easy
U know wat…felt like seeig Ron again…was so easy…I just used to look at him…blush..smile to myself..listen to that deep,husky voice..used to observe his activities all day long…used to go home and write abt it..finsih…no one hurt..no wriies…JUST a crush
I loved Romney penhallow…who is he?...infact wat is he?just a mere character out of a twenty page short story…sunno wat made me adore him…but I did...my hero!
I even fell for Blue…sweet valley ka hero bhi…n a junior in my school…hehehe…was really nice…puppy love…cute,tall,nice,smiling,and then the crush ends…any problem?..nope!
A weird..balkay MAHA weird person like me has even fallen for Severus Snape who is hated by 90% of harry potter fans I think…still the spice of his character..the mystery..the nastiness…mayb even da coldness…fantastic…still had no problem…
The list goes on from Arjun Ramplall to Al pacino,,,,Johny Depp..hehe…aur pata nahin kon kon…
Bt now…there is a problem…I fell for a human being,,,who had feelings…who could love me back..who could actually feel pain…who could get aattatched…who cloould miss me…who could take care of me..who could dream…who could hope..who could pray…found Bond…aaaah..whther it’s the best thing that happened to me…I don’t know yet…the time will tell me…I wish..i just wished that i want as attached as well… I wish it did not hurt anyone….i wish it was sthing ryte in the eyes of everyone..including myself…I wish I hadn’t loosened up…I wish I had remained that brat I used to be..i wish I did not even have a choice…I wish I did not have tears in my eyes now...yet WHY…why o why do I wish for it to happen…wish for the dreams to come true…the prayers to b fulfilled…wish that everything should turn out to b well…the way we have imagined…
CONCLUSION: I m a mess!!!! And that I am responsible for someone as well…for turning all those desires into hopes…I am responsible for it all…I am a mess..
Aaaah..but still there are hopes..there are dreamz…there are prayers…Allah jee…please guide me…please male this all right for me…best for me…You can do anything….ANYTHING…please God…help me….
U know wat…felt like seeig Ron again…was so easy…I just used to look at him…blush..smile to myself..listen to that deep,husky voice..used to observe his activities all day long…used to go home and write abt it..finsih…no one hurt..no wriies…JUST a crush
I loved Romney penhallow…who is he?...infact wat is he?just a mere character out of a twenty page short story…sunno wat made me adore him…but I did...my hero!
I even fell for Blue…sweet valley ka hero bhi…n a junior in my school…hehehe…was really nice…puppy love…cute,tall,nice,smiling,and then the crush ends…any problem?..nope!
A weird..balkay MAHA weird person like me has even fallen for Severus Snape who is hated by 90% of harry potter fans I think…still the spice of his character..the mystery..the nastiness…mayb even da coldness…fantastic…still had no problem…
The list goes on from Arjun Ramplall to Al pacino,,,,Johny Depp..hehe…aur pata nahin kon kon…
Bt now…there is a problem…I fell for a human being,,,who had feelings…who could love me back..who could actually feel pain…who could get aattatched…who cloould miss me…who could take care of me..who could dream…who could hope..who could pray…found Bond…aaaah..whther it’s the best thing that happened to me…I don’t know yet…the time will tell me…I wish..i just wished that i want as attached as well… I wish it did not hurt anyone….i wish it was sthing ryte in the eyes of everyone..including myself…I wish I hadn’t loosened up…I wish I had remained that brat I used to be..i wish I did not even have a choice…I wish I did not have tears in my eyes now...yet WHY…why o why do I wish for it to happen…wish for the dreams to come true…the prayers to b fulfilled…wish that everything should turn out to b well…the way we have imagined…
CONCLUSION: I m a mess!!!! And that I am responsible for someone as well…for turning all those desires into hopes…I am responsible for it all…I am a mess..
Aaaah..but still there are hopes..there are dreamz…there are prayers…Allah jee…please guide me…please male this all right for me…best for me…You can do anything….ANYTHING…please God…help me….
posted by half @ 6:55 AM
4 Comments:
At 9:33 AM,
uXuf said…
Yar, its pretty easy falling for someone, and equally easy having someone to love. But what's difficult, is to maintain the relationship.
For myself I know I am an egotistic brat and I ve hurt her so many times. I am so sad. But I have apologised, and that has made things better :)
These skirmishes help in understanding each other, to take the steps forward. We are ofcourse a little better after the fight :)
So keep happy, and keep them happy too.
At 4:36 AM,
Majaz said…
You're not a mess.
Loving people means loving their idiosyncrasies. Loving their imperfections and loving their perfections and loving the balance between them; sometimes you have to create that balance.. and sometimes they help you create it... or maybe... sometimes you have to find it...
... either way... 'tis the greatest thing... to love and to be loved in return...' .....
At 4:38 AM,
Majaz said…
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At 10:52 AM,
Majaz said…
And now Cedric Diggory. :P
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